I call them my Star Committee
Ancestral souls who, for reasons of age or temperament
Flew to other side of darkness before me.
Some went suddenly, some went slowly
Some went without warning, others not
All went willingly and with purpose
I want to honor them, legacies living still
Our soul web is still strong
They whisper, yell and cajole
Nighttime is busy in their court
Stand up, they say, you are now the front-runner
You, and the others we are guiding
I say yes to them, I thank them for their patience
I hurry to their gardens, nurturing what is left
of the plan we had, praying that I can hear them well.
To put my sorrow at their leaving
In their nurturing laps sometimes crosses my mind
But they say no, use it for the dream we dreamed
together before time started
You are old enough and kind enough now.
© CARMELLA WEINTRAUB, 1998
The beautiful colors of soft aqua and white reflect the ethereal qualities of Air which is the Direction that is honored by this dress. The powerful Eagle represents the energy of flight and the pastel flowers strewn across the skirt are accentuated with the dazzle of sparkling crystal beads. The silk chiffon capelet is embellished with white breath feathers, crystal beads and the poem by Rilke, The Winged Energy of Delight, which honors child-like innocence in its finest form. The delicate white feathers represent the connection with Spirit and are ancient shamanic tools.
This hand painted silk dress is honors the direction of the South, the powers of Fire. The dress is painted in an ombre color which shifts from soft yellow to deep yellow green, the color or photosynthesis or life itself. The silk chiffon capelet is embellished with bells, crystals, feathers and gold threads. The dress is appliquéd with a poem by Chief Seattle regarding the importance of caring for our land. The Aztec eagle graces the capelet and the American buffalo encircles the swirling skirt. The Direction of the South honors the Sun, creativity, fire and passion. Wearing this dress inspires creativity beyond measure.
This one-of-a-kind hand painted silk gown in shimmering silk satin honors the direction of the West, the powers of Water. It features the flora and fauna of the sea as well as feathers, bells and semi-precious stones, all tools of the shamanka. The dress is embellished with a poem by Rilke called The Starving Exhausted Daughters, about
This crepe de chine silk ceremonial gown in a slim silhouette honors the powers of the Earth. It features the symbols of the ouruboros and the lotus, both powerful ancient symbols of infinity, wholeness and supreme wisdom. The capelet also features the snake, another sign of transformation, and is embellished with feathers of the turkey vulture, a symbol of purification. Also appliquéd on the chiffon cape is a poem called Terra Incognita by D. H. Lawrence about the potential richness of living a life outside the bounds of culture’s strict confines. Bells complete the ceremonial richness of this dress, representing the powers of the earth.
This dress represents the Powers of Transformation. The Aqua green silk chiffon and crepe de chine are embellished with a multitude of colorful butterflies in various stages of flight. The chiffon overlay give additional dimension to the the flight of the butterflies. The oversized shawl also features butterflies and is edged with a deep aqua border. The butterfly is an ancient symbol of transformation, transmutation and change of form and function.
This black silk velvet coat honors the Soul of the Divine Feminine. The three-quarter, loose fitting coat features a shawl collar, hand blown buttons and a stunning hand printed silk lining showing the beautiful black panther stalking the green forests in the moonlight. The lining is not meant to show as it important that women’s energy be contained for maximum power. We need this teaching at this time in history.
This dress represents the powers of the Divine Feminine and the powerful Jaguar embellishes this Violet silk crepe de chine hand painted ceremonial gown. The skirt of this dress is overlaid with silk chiffon, which is also hand painted and has beautiful red lilies as well as the Jaguar. The poem by Yeats, The Second Coming, is printed on silk organza and appliquéd on the silk chiffon overlay. Glass beads, red macaw feathers and the lilies complete the picture on the silk chiffon shawl that adorns this sacred ensemble. The Jaguar and the red feathers symbolize the strong passions that rule the woman of power and should not be taken lightly.
This mandala arrived quite spontaneously on a retreat to Maui to process the loss of my sister, Nancy. The retreat location supported my goals in turning inward to gain more awareness of the meaning of our relationship. This descent was a powerful one and during my retreat there I met a woman, Isabela, with whom I discussed the necessity of expanding one’s heart to contain the pain and sorrow of loss – any kind of loss. This expansion often transforms pain into compassion and takes an incredible amount of patience and self-compassion to sustain. It becomes a practice if one has the devotion and commitment to the process.